today i was invited by one of my colleagues to attend a worship concert at the chapel of the ressurection which is located in sajc... it was a long time since i went there and so i gladly agreed...
the thing started at 730 but i only reached at 8 due to traffic... as i walked in, the band was just wrapping up the last bits of one way... and after that it was all the slow songs to get ppl into the altar-call mood... the songs chosen were really good and the band was great... i kinda went back into the worshippy mood again... it's just... sheesh... dont know how to describe it... but it was great...
we havent had that in prinsep in quite a while... actually, we never had something like that ever... a worship concert in which the member s invite their non-christian friends for a time of great music and simply worship... hmm... i wonder if prinsep (PLH, YAF, Believers etc) can pull it off.. it think it'll be great for everyone...i think doc john might be just the person who can make it all work out...
bleah... tired... need sleep... nitez~!
Thursday, September 22, 2005
What best describes NSFs
We are the UNFORTUNATE
and UNDERPAID
led by the UNQULIFIED
to do the UNNECESSARY
for the UNGRATEFUL...
Yup... that pretty much sums it all up...
and UNDERPAID
led by the UNQULIFIED
to do the UNNECESSARY
for the UNGRATEFUL...
Yup... that pretty much sums it all up...
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Messing up...
I've so totally messed up my life... I messed up school-life... I messed up church-life... I messed up my work-life... How I wish I could just push the 'reset' button and make it all go away... I wouldn't mind starting it all over again... I wish I could start all over again...
Thanks to all those who sent their birthday wishes... They're really treasured and cherished...
Thanks to all those who sent their birthday wishes... They're really treasured and cherished...
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Thursday, September 01, 2005
A sad sad life...
Now is the time when I blog what I really feel about the things that go on around me.
Basically I've been feeling down and out the past few months if not the past 2 years. Ever since I enlisted into the god-forsaken SAF, my social life has taken a nose-dive... A nose-dive to hell to be precise.
Leaving school at the end of 2003 would mean that I would see my classmates very little and conscription made it even worse. However, we would still meet up occasionally for get-togethers. But the real, hard, cold truth hit me in the last outing. The last outing for me that is. In July, an outing for Albert was organised on a Sunday and the plan was to have dinner and a few drinks after that. The time spent was great. But the things was that I was not invited. Or at least not invited originally. Why do I say so? That afternoon I received a message from Razif asking me if I was going for the outing that night. It was an outing which I never knew of at that time. I eventually went uninvited.
A few weeks later, I message Shahin to ask if he was watching the EPL kick off that evening. His reply was that he was going out with friends and they were better company than the TV and soccer. Fair enough. A short while later, Razif messages me telling me that he would not be going for an outing that night and asking if I was. Oh what horror... My friend of 2 years in JC treating me as though I am not a member of the class I cherished. He used "friends" and not "S41" or "the class". I was extremely disappointed.
They never tell me anything nowadays. Everytime I read about an outing in Razif's blog, I feel so unwanted. I look back at my previous posts and wonder why I kept saying that my times with the class were moments to be cherished and embraces. But now the bitter truth has emerged. I have never been wanted. I have never fit in. Once I wrote that time spent with the class was priceless. I take it back. I take it all back.
I've always had character flaws with sometimes offend people. I've been told many times by others that I should change. I was also told that if I have to change for people to accept me, those people are not my friends. I don't know what to do.
I've been sufering in silence and today is the day I let it all out. I feel jealous of those who are always contacted. I feel disappointment with those who never bothered to call. I feel so alone...
Basically I've been feeling down and out the past few months if not the past 2 years. Ever since I enlisted into the god-forsaken SAF, my social life has taken a nose-dive... A nose-dive to hell to be precise.
Leaving school at the end of 2003 would mean that I would see my classmates very little and conscription made it even worse. However, we would still meet up occasionally for get-togethers. But the real, hard, cold truth hit me in the last outing. The last outing for me that is. In July, an outing for Albert was organised on a Sunday and the plan was to have dinner and a few drinks after that. The time spent was great. But the things was that I was not invited. Or at least not invited originally. Why do I say so? That afternoon I received a message from Razif asking me if I was going for the outing that night. It was an outing which I never knew of at that time. I eventually went uninvited.
A few weeks later, I message Shahin to ask if he was watching the EPL kick off that evening. His reply was that he was going out with friends and they were better company than the TV and soccer. Fair enough. A short while later, Razif messages me telling me that he would not be going for an outing that night and asking if I was. Oh what horror... My friend of 2 years in JC treating me as though I am not a member of the class I cherished. He used "friends" and not "S41" or "the class". I was extremely disappointed.
They never tell me anything nowadays. Everytime I read about an outing in Razif's blog, I feel so unwanted. I look back at my previous posts and wonder why I kept saying that my times with the class were moments to be cherished and embraces. But now the bitter truth has emerged. I have never been wanted. I have never fit in. Once I wrote that time spent with the class was priceless. I take it back. I take it all back.
I've always had character flaws with sometimes offend people. I've been told many times by others that I should change. I was also told that if I have to change for people to accept me, those people are not my friends. I don't know what to do.
I've been sufering in silence and today is the day I let it all out. I feel jealous of those who are always contacted. I feel disappointment with those who never bothered to call. I feel so alone...
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